May 29, 2022

Ch- Ch-Changes

Graphic credit: Axios
In this blog I’ve written about changes in my daughter’s lives. Sometimes I focus on how their school activities and environment is transforming them. It’s fun to document their activities and their trajectory. Naomi is charting her own course, too—more exercise, more hamsters, more healthy food. There is no staying still or remaining static for any of us.

January through March was another still-working-at-home, highly caffeinated prologue to 2022. Then things changed in April when I moved to a new employer--and it has changed my life. Truth be told, the jury is still out if this new position will work out for me or not. Making the decision to leave my previous company was tough, primarily because they'd been good to me as an employer. I believe I did my part as an employee, too. Deciding to stay or go wasn't easy. I weighed leaving my stable and good job -- that I was grateful to have – for something new, exciting and challenging. Did the salary comparison. Assessed the potential impact on work-life balance and how that could affect the family. And I discussed it at length with my wife because we’re co-captains. In the end, I went for the new gig.

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I couldn’t help myself. David Bowie’s timeless song is perfect: "Ch-ch-changes. Turn and face the strange. There's gonna have to be a different man."

"They" say the first few months of any new position is tough because it rips your moorings away. You must seek out new allies in the workplace. You have new processes and goals to contend with. And people expect you to contribute quickly even during the adjustment phase.

I am right in the middle of experiencing all that. It’s jarring. Sleep deprivation is real. Self-doubt occasionally rears its ugly head. My weight loss is based on stress, not a new exercise regimen. Gadzooks.

I write all this stuff for posterity more than anything else. It's capturing the moment because the changes that headline this post are real for us.

An interesting corollary is an old friend has become a life coach and we are having very interesting conversations. It’s healthy and helpful to discuss the adjustments due to a new job along with extra challenges. It can’t be all wine and roses when your working life turns upside down. For all that, it’s a good thing to take on new opportunities in life and damn the torpedoes. To not take a new fork in the road to see where it leads has its own perils such as wondering what might have been. Better to dare and do, live out loud regardless of the ultimate outcome. Life’s a real pageant (thank you Michael Stipe), but you have put it all on the table sometimes and see what happens next.

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May 7, 2022

Close call with Covid

Courtesy of Asahi News

The world has endured two years of relentless discussion of Covid* and its profound impact on society. Without question, coronavirus has changed the world. When the impact gets personal, though, it is wince-inducingly personal.

How would you feel if your pre-travel antigen test or mandatory-for-travel PCR test result was “weakly positive”? It's a clinical judgment rife with ambiguity. It means you cannot travel and must immediately self-isolate. The added significance is the medical authorities are not sure of your upper respiratory health status. Asymptomatic refers to folks who are infected by Covid or a variant, as detected by a PCR test, but who never develop any symptoms. Yet “weakly positive” stops everything in its tracks. “Uhh, we’re not sure if you’re really sick, but just in case, you can’t travel or interact with others.” Goodness gracious, Charlie Brown. 

This scenario happened to me as I neared the end of a business trip to Europe.

Graphic credit: Aida Amer, Axios

To prepare for my return home I needed to take a PCR test 72 hours before departure to Japan. My test result was the above-mentioned “weakly positive.” I stopped all work and immediately self-isolated in my hotel room. My colleagues on the trip took over my responsibilities.

We’re all aware of the human cost of Covid. At this point, 515 million infections with 6.2 million deaths. My feeling some anxiety about being infected feels petty in comparison to the anguish others have endured. But you can’t deny your feelings. I was marooned in a hotel room in Europe. I got busy doing back-office support for my co-workers, but that eventually ended and I had more free time to fret. Had I been too careless with prevention? Did my actions somehow cause this, or was I unlucky? Will it develop into full-blown Covid? How would I self-care, like monitoring body temperature or buying other medical needs, if I was prohibited from leaving my room? All this stuff revolves in your head. Your room phone, mobile phone, and laptop become your best friends. Yet, a pleasant hotel room is not Alcatraz, right? You suck it up and stick to facts, try not to become too mired in thinking about possibilities.

For roughly three days, my world narrowed down to the hotel room and numerous emails and texts. I will never forget the human element – the kindness of strangers – that made it easier to set aside negative thinking. One co-worker bought me a thermometer, self-testing kits, and extra masks that met local standards. Amid an arduous, high-pressure work program, another co-worker dutifully visited every day to make sure I was doing well and to drop off some morale-raising bread and beer.

Then my European colleagues arranged a new PCR test at a local clinic. That clinic appointment turned into a Marx Brothers slapstick trip. As the minutes ticked by to depart to the clinic by taxi as planned, the hotel front staff’s body language and whispers told me that taxi drivers were refusing to take me to the clinic. Likely because I could be Covid-positive. I was dismayed, but it is their right to choose their passengers. Yet, I felt like a pariah. Sensing my plight, two of the hotel staff heroically commandeered their boss’s personal car without permission and drove me pell-mell to the clinic. We got stopped at a train crossing for several minutes, imperiling my test appointment. No problem. We jumped out of the car and ran across the train tracks with the oncoming train in sight. It being a Latin country, despite my being ten minutes late, the clinic let me take the test without too much fuss. They swabbed my tonsil area and poked in both nostrils, inducing involuntary tears. I was done and outta there in 10 minutes. The good Samaritans felt sorry for my plight and took me on a small tour of the main attractions of their city. Up to that point, all I’d seen was the hotel room and its window views.

It’s worth pointing out these were two complete strangers. Turns out one of them had already endured real Covid twice. Yet they helped me without hesitation, potentially endangering themselves. If I take anything away from this experience, it was these small acts of human kindness by co-workers and strangers. It made a great impression on me.

Precisely one day later, I got the email from the clinic with one magic word: “negative." It immediately released me from these dispiriting three days in limbo. I drank Pellegrino sparkling water in celebration, like I was the winning driver of the Monaco Grand Prix.

Now, all I needed to do was re-arrange my flights and get back to Japan…

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(Ed. Note: Is it me, or are we all so tired of capitalizing COVID, thus giving it full command of our attention, that we’re consciously minimizing it by using only the initial capital “C”?)